THE SHORT LIFE OF A LONG SOUL

All week long I felt weird, Strange and uneasy if you may. I was constantly slapped with the urge to divulge in sadness. I went to see the fault in our stars, listened to all the sad songs in the book and I just knew something was not right. I kept talking about this one person, sent her messages  rang her, all attempts were futile.  It wasn't until the evening of June 23rd that all my suspicions were confirmed I finally got the answer, something was indeed wrong, Her beautiful soul had past away.

 It's been a couple of months since her passing and one day doesn't go by without me thinking about the beautiful human that was Estella Chinwebudu Ariolu. It was in JSS3, during summer extension classes that I met her. Her tall skinny frame I saw. She had a massive white bandage around her ankle as she was ill but the biggest smile in the world like nothing was wrong. From the corner of my eye I saw her and said "I'm so sorry about your leg" boom!! That was the beginning of me witnesses the awesomeness of this soul. She sent me gifts (digestive biscuits and drinks hahaha) to say thank you for caring. Oh God that melted my heart and I knew she was special. All summer we spent hours on our mums' phones talking absolute nonsense but it was amazing. We went through high school and became extremely close, the only downside was she was ill. She was unable to participate in most things kids of our age did because she was in the hospital for the most part of her life.
We were all admitted into the university except for her, she couldn't as a result of her being constantly being ill. I made sure I visited her and stayed with her as often as I could, looking back now it was not enough. I wish I spent so much more time.

Estella c Ariolu, my guidian angel I hope everyday that I am woken up and told that indeed it was all a dream. I love you so terribly much and no day has gone by without thoughts of you in my head. Somehow you creep in and I hold myself back so I don't say something out loud. The positivity you exuded minimised the level of pain you endured. Your last phone call to me was just a month before you passed. You said "I love you so much, thank you" no one will ever understand how much you meant to me NO ONE!!!!!!

Haha my sincere apologies to anyone kind enough to read this for turning this into one sappy ass story, I've just missed her so much and did not know what to do. You blessed everyone you came across I know that for a fact. You were heaven sent my baby and I know you at peace, where the pain is no more .....

LET FAITH GUIDE YOUR PATH

Hey there gorgeous people.

Yes i said faith!!!!! Faith like the bible says (not to go all religious ) is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.

Faith is seeing a positive in everything no matter how negative , It is in my word being stupid because how else can you describe being hopeful when all seems lost.

I can hear your overly critical voices saying but we have to be realistic and I am for that, there is a difference between realism, scepticism and just being plainly cynical.
sometimes I feel like my head and my heart are at constant war with these three. Like my head sticks to being realistic and my heart lets faith come in.

I woke up this morning so full of hope that i decided to document it and just read it back to my self, and what better accomplishment when at least one person also reads this.

The word faith is so important to me that I had to have it somewhere on my body (cue in Jason Derulo's Tattoo here), people do not understand how deep that word goes. It doesn't matter if you are religious or not, every living being has to believe in  the power faith, because it is a more detailed form of hope.

In a world where negativity is the order of the day having an ounce of hope can be the most difficult thing, living every day as it comes may be easier. but just that belief alone that "It will get better" makes a whole lot of difference.
It should not matter what life has thrown at you, professionally, personally and otherwise, just mere belief that there's a turning point can change your whole life forever.
Not to sound generic but "when life gives you lemons, make a smoothie"

Do not go into new adventures with scepticism and hoping to fail, if you do fail however, pick yourself up and get on with it, having a mindset of a more advanced, more experienced human in that set field, whatever it is. Don't walk around with a trunk full of 400 pounds of past mistakes because it will deny you the chance of finding something tangible and meaningful.

"Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think,not wonder, not imagine not obsess, just breath and have faith that everything will work out for the best"

I sound like a preacher, so i am just gonna go :)

All my love
xxx

Daily dose of me

Hey beautiful humans, I'm just gonna have a little rant today,  pardon me :)

You know how exciting it is when you go to a new environment and all you want to do is take photos, well errrm don't do that in front of me just don't!. I find it so annoying, Maybe I'm just a grumpy granny but I'm sure everyone who lives in a tourist friendly area can relate to this.

The Asians taking photos of every single thing that passes by and doing the peace sign, The Africans taking photos of their bling bling next to poles, shops, every single thing, The Caucasians taking photos period. obstructing the ease of movement for those of us going about our daily activities ( I sound bitter, I'm not loll).

Sometimes I try to envisage what life is like for Parisians, New Yorkers, Italians etc., well I know cos I have been that annoying tourist haha. Anyway these are some things I do not enjoy whilst commuting.

THAT PERSON WHO STANDS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE ESCALATOR

To be fair this is not just a tourist behaviour, it is pure craziness of humans.and no if you cannot read just follow the crowd, this is not a case of being "different or unique"

THE HUMAN OBLIVIOUS TO THE CURRENCY, WHO SPENDS HOURS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE AMOUNT. 

Spending 20 minutes paying for 99p chips with £50 notes I mean  COME ON!!!!

Like it's been 30 minutes mate 

 Again this is not just tourists, it is every human being sometimes. I can be that person as well especially when on queue you remember you have £1,000 in coins and decide to sort it out and pay for that transaction at the TILL!!!!!!!!!!

Contrary to what you might be thinking I was a very cheerful individual well until this city sucked all the happy off of me :(. anyway I digress, back to my rant



THE PERSON THAT MAKES YOU THEIR PILLOW ON THE UNDERGROUND 

Do i know you??AWKWARD

Somehow someone falls asleep on your shoulder and you just sit there cos it is too awkward to do anything  else and even more awkward when you get to your stop. what do you say to such a person? "Babe we are here" or hey stranger " can i go" or do you just rudely get up so they fall of ( I would ) lool JK JK





This last one rarely ever happens but hey lool

WHEN THAT RANDOM PERSON YOU JUST TALKED TO 5 MINUTES AGO DECIDES TO SHARE YOUR FOOD WITH YOU

I am not your friend! Shtop eeet

lol try not to resort to violence when this happens. It has happened to me and I was too stunned to even get mad.
I am sure a lot of people out there can relate to this if you can't then oh well. Have a beautiful sunday lovelies.

All my love
xx

Introduction

Hello to any person kind enough to read this, sorry my introduction is coming late, i did not think i had to cos no one will read this anyway but hey you never know i might become the next Perez Hilton< TMZ or Daily mail, so to my friends you better be nice to me now:).

Ok so I am sitting in my living room thinking of my dissertation and what topic to do, EL OH EL it is due in 2 months and I do not know what my topic is. Perfect student aren't I? Anyway i am sitting here watching telly whilst thinking and these thoughts start to come to my head like "why don't you start a blog?" I'm like blog about what? (yes i have conversations out loud with myself). I'm no author I say and my writing skills are only amazing when I do coursework (nerd alert) which is a bit strange but yea, so i decided to start this blog which in my opinion will serve as a motivation to carry out researches and complete my disso in time :) (fingers crossed)

It really is going to be focused on real life happenings, daily rants, collective experiences on personal, uni life and just your little go to zone when you are bored and  want to read stories of  the weird things that go through my head.

i find this photo so cute.

Thanks for reading> Peace and love earthlings xxxxxxxxxxx

"Life is Like a coconut, very hard but when you open it you find a cute babe" Forgive me!!!!!

philosophy is not my forte.

 LONDON

A beautiful place with amazing weather and very cheerful people....... I take that back, well it is a beautiful place, but the people?  Na. I don t think so. Let's talk about the weather. Boy is it horrible. LOL. WEATHER in London.is best described as a woman in her period,, a psychotic man with Daddy issues or just a clearly stupid individual confused as to what direction to take in life.
In summary, the Weather in London is BiPolar Anyway here are my things not to do when you are living in London more so when you just move here from a place as nice as California

1.Do not smile on the Underground, I repeat do not SMILE on the Underground cos no one cares.
On the underground, (subway or metro as it is called in other parts of the world) every one seems to have a goal which  is "mind my business and keep a long face". It is almost like there is a prize to be awarded for who frowns the most and the funny part is 99% of the time these individuals have no purpose in life no sense of direction, no where to go but hey no one knows if you don't tell right?

Dunno why they are all in shorts?

2.) What we call summer.
What we call summer here might be referred to as 'anonymous confusion in the clouds' When they say summer, try not to dress like it is actually sunny because it is a farce. the sun might be out at 9.am, rain at 9.23 am.Snowflakes at 9.30 am., and yeah you know the drill. It almost feels like the clouds are so anxious to exhibit their versatility. It wants to show itself at every point in time, therefore flaunts all four seasons in one day "just cos it can" You know. Sometimes it makes it more complicated and gives all four season at once, So its rainy, sunny, wind,y grey at the same damn time. Now if you ask me that is real talent. To end this i will say London or more broadly the UK's weather is highly talented.

she's a little bit ready for what is to come..

I promise you in her bag she's got knee high wellies, a raincoat, ear muffs, a mac and probably wool hats.
There are so many more things you should not do in London, I might come across as a sadist :(. but hey im just a good friend, lol

3.) Assumption is the biggest mistake.
 Assuming as an act of kindness will only get you insulted, spat on or sometimes slapped, lol  OK I exaggerate, but seriously whilst on the train do not assume you know the state of someone standing in front of you. Let me explain. If you see a woman with an extremely Long or huge belle, do not assume she's pregnant or needs a seat, cos more often that not she just had two buckets of wings and a zinger meal, IMO she is in some way pregnant (of chicken obvs) but she would not see it that way and end up going ham on you. A woman that looks frail and old does not want to be reminded of her ticking clock, so if you offer her a seat it is at your peril. In my opinion do not give up your seat at all whether they are older or younger except of course the police asks you too :) Enjoy it cos you might never get to seat again on the train,

Yea i bet she refused a seat too and ended falling over on that innocent man

I hope this helps on your decision to move to London and prepares you for what is to come. :). As ta la vista babies